Seeing Double!

Over the past week to week and a half I have started to wonder if I might be pregnant.  I am still nursing Ella and so my cycles are not normal and things were happening to make me wonder.  I started to feel like my stomach had popped out all of the sudden.  I was eating celery like a crazed rabbit at the Thanksgiving table.  I was a little emotional.  My biggest clue was that I was raging hungry!  I was started to feel hungry a few hours after I had eaten a huge meal.  My thoughts were, come on no way!  We just finished football season and there is no time for hanky panky!  Besides that, you are just too freaking tired for that business by the end of the day!  I had a pregnancy test in my cabinet but nothing in me wanted to take it.  Honestly I felt better not knowing!!! 

If I were to rewind back a few years pre Adda you would understand my hate relationship with the pregnancy test.  For three years I trickled on those sticks all to tell me I was not pregnant!  When I finally got a positive with Adda I kept it.  I still have it actually!  You might think that is disgusting but it was one of the most amazing days of my life.  For three years Gonzo and begged on our knees for the Lord to give us a baby and to see a test that was finally positive felt so good!  When we decided to start trying for Ella we thought we should start a little earlier than what we wanted because of how long it took with Adda.  Well the very first time it was unprotected the Lord made Ella!  He is a God of Love!  I was shocked but so thankful that He didn't allow us to go through the waiting again! 

This brings me to last Monday night.  I gave in and decided I better take a pregnancy test.  Before I did I asked Gonzo if he was going to be happy or upset if it was positive.  He said, "I will be happy but nervous about how we will afford it!"  So I went in and did my duty and said out loud "Jesus this is your plan!"  About .5 seconds later it came up positive.  I went it to tell Gonzo and started to cry.  I have always had this idea of how things should be and what milestones my kids should be at and blah, blah, blah before I have another baby.  It was all out the window that second.  If my numbers were right in my head I was about 10 weeks along and Ella and this new baby would be about 14 months apart.  I had to take a step back and think about the fact that He is the Giver of Life and that this baby was no accident.  His plan might not have been our plan but we were going to let go and give it all to Him. 

I made my appointment and we went in this morning to have a sonogram to see exactly how far along I am.  When everything came up on the screen I realized that the baby looked big.  By your third kid you know what all the fuzz looks like on the sonogram screen.  My stomach dropped because I thought she was about to tell me I was like 5 months along or something.  Ha!  No, what she said was TWINS!!!!  I said what, you're joking!  She said no, I wouldn't joke about that!  You guys are having twins!  There are two heartbeats, and she pointed to Baby A, and Baby B!  I looked over at Gonzo and he was silent just staring at the screen!  I think I said about 10 more times that she must be joking.  She asked if it ran in our family and we both said no.  She asked if we had taken any medication to get pregnant and we laughed and said no!  I didn't really hear much of what she said as she went through the sonogram.  My mind was turning a mile a minute.  Then I asked, "Is this the normal reaction?"  She said yes, and laughed!  Gonzo and I walked out to the waiting room to be called back to see my doctor and I said, "Babe you gotta talk!  I don't know what to say, but you gotta say something!"  We both are overwhelmed, and feel soooo blessed.  The Lord knows what He is doing (I hope!) and we will rest in that!  I am about 8.5 weeks and the due date is July 12!  My doctor told us that we will not go to term and that they shoot for 36 weeks with twins.  So, we are looking at mid to late June!  We are excited, scared, nervous, and thankful!  I am fearful of many things that I will just have to lay at His feet!  Please stand with us as we pray for our family of 6!  I will keep you all updated and will try to blog as much as I can. 

Oh, and the winner of the earrings is Erin Westby!  Love you Erin and I will get these in the mail to you as soon as I can!